Saturday, August 15, 2009

Wow!

Hello there, it's been a while. It's funny how much things have changed, yet also stayed the same in that time.

Life is a funny thing. Wasn't it just months ago that I was counting down the days, hours, minutes to completing my degree? And now I have it and wish more than anything that I was on my way back to school this September? I always said that I would prefer to work full time than go to school because work is so clearly defined. You work this many hours a day, this many hours a week, and then go home and not think about. School is always on your mind, and you always know you should be working on it. However, although work is defined for me now, I feel like I am so much more defined as a student. I know what it means to be a student, I know what I'm supposed to do and what my life is supposed to look like and it all, though difficult at times, makes sense. There is always a final goal with school, and I'm having a difficult time finding those now that I'm not in school.

I do have plans to apply to go back to school though. I'm not going to say where, or for what, because everyone I want to know already knows, and no offense to the public domain of blogging, but I feel like getting it so out there would be a jynx of sorts. I'm so excited though. And I really, really hope that things work out and I get into where I want to go. The problem that makes me worried though, is that things seem to be laying out so perfectly right now for going to school. That makes me worry that things will go wrong soon, but that's no way to look at it, and right now I'm just going to be super hopeful.

It's strange to not have any idea what my life is going to look like a year from now. Well, not any idea I guess, but two extreme differences, with neither being more probable than the other right now. I will either have gotten into the school I want to go to and have moved really far away to do that (please, please, PLEASE), or will have moved out into my own place in Calgary! Or maybe some third option totally unknown to me right now. Haha, because as I learned, particularly on a Tuesday afternoon late in June, life does have a way of blindsiding you and throwing you will challenges that you least expected.

I'm doing well though. The above info isn't meant to be doom and gloom, or that I'm totally depressed not knowing "what" I am right now. I am enjoying the time off from school, and can hopefully pursue stuff that was neglected while I was in school (which is so far neglected outside as well, haha). I'm excited about the changes that might happen in the next year, I'm excited for Matt, Lo, and I to take a trip to Edmonton for some waterpark fun in a couple weeks, and I am ESPECIALLY excited for the trip that Lo and I booked (at extremely great price nonetheless) to Montreal and Toronto. After that I'm excited for my photography class to start, and after that, Christmas! And hopefully in January a tropical vacation for me and Matt!! So things are great right now too. :)

Sorry for the marathon entry; if you made it through you are a champ! I'll keep up to date more from now on. Ooh, and I'm having a computer built right now, so once I get that, I'll REALLY be able to keep up to date.